Anonymous asked:
shejla24 answered:
do i look like i want to ruin my peaceful state of mind
I used to give so much of myself to people. Ignoring my own wounds, absorbing their pain, treating their battles as my own. I gave and i gave and i gave, but to all the wrong people.
Now i’m all empty. Self-preservation, maybe. I don’t know how to get close to people without diving all the way in. I stay far away from that ledge now. I no longer allow the risk of letting myself drown.
friends (BUT NOT FRIENDS)
friends (BUT I CAN’T CALL YOU AT 2 A.M ANYMORE)
friends (BUT I AM NOW ALLOWED TO THINK ABOUT YOU IN THE SHOWER)
friends (BUT YOU UNFOLLOWED ME EVERYWHERE AND YOU STILL HAVEN’T SAID ANYTHING ABOUT IT)
friends (BUT YOU DON’T CHECK ON ME ANYMORE, WHICH IS PROBABLY GOOD BECAUSE I’M DOING TERRIBLE)
friends (BUT YOU CAN’T SEE ME IN YOUR DREAMS, MOSTLY BECAUSE OF HER)
and friends yeah, ( BUT ALWAYS LESS THAN THAT)
I’m sorry you were not truly loved and that it made you cruel.
dear me
when you wake up
and forget how to look at the world with warmth,
when it takes all of the energy you have
to turn off the alarm and open the blinds:
remember this.when you forget to eat for days and push in your ribs ashamed,
when you look in the mirror
and see your stretches coming back,
the vitamins you take every morning,
the anxiety medicine in your purse
when you can’t fucking breathe
because you had that dream again
and you can’t fucking think straight
because you feel that breath on your neck:
remember this.when you can’t sleep and stare at the ceiling
playing your past like a projection lit by the glow of your phone,
when you feel like your wings were clipped,
when you’ve gone months without writing anything
remember this.remember that you may still be young
but your bones have held you so strong
please don’t ever let them stop whispering,
please remember this:you are stronger than this.
you deserve more than this.
you fought the war before it began
and you’ll celebrate the victory long before it’s over.
you
are
my
hero.
